# Satu

Sunday, April 8
Salam alayk,

Buat seketika, masa seolah-olah berhenti. Seperti mahu bertanya,

"Kau masih mahu meneruskan perjalanan ini? Nah, aku berikan satu tempoh, hitung dan nilai, bagaimana kau mahu meneruskan perjalanan ini!"

Dari satu perhentian ke satu perhentian. Analisa demi analisa dilakukan.
Dan apabila tersedar, sebenarnya masa tidak pernah berhenti dan berbicara.

Sedar-sedar, kau sudah jauh ditinggalkan masa.

Dosa-dosa semalam yang kau tangisi,
Salah silap semalam yang kau sesali,
Takkan ada natijah yang terhasil jika kau masih duduk disini,
Menanti masa berbicara, dan memberi kau masa kecemasan.

Jangan tertipu.

***
Alhamdulillah, Allah memberi peluang untuk berada di sini pada hari ini. Menghirup udara bumi thaurah, memijak bumi yang meraikan kepelbagaian.

Alhamdulillah, diberi peluang bersama-sama dengan orang-orang yang sangat saya cintai dan sangat mencintai saya.

Alhamdulillah, diberi peluang untuk bersama-sama dalam perjalanan menuju redha Allah.

Gerabak-gerabak yang terus bergerak laju, takkan berhenti dan menunggu.

Move on. Move on.

Alangkah baiknya jika kata-kata semudah diungkap.

What happened in the past, will always stay there. You can do nothing about it.
But, you can decide, what will you do tomorrow...

***
Haha I think the problem is within me.
Yes, I am miserable.

Take note on what I'm trying to say, so that, you will not repeat my mistakes.

Because of my lackings, I've drove away from the right track. I took days of 'vacation'. I've ignored 'messages'. Just because I'm lacking.


' So in letting go, the answer lies in love. Fall in love. Fall in love with something greater. Fall in love with the Real thing. See the Mansion '
-Fall in Love with The Real Thing, www.yasminmogahed.com

No, no and no. I'm not heartbroken, errr, with someone. No. (.....)

Its just a battle between me and 'me'

I want to let go of my bad side. No matter how much I struggle to do so, at the end, I am still lacking.

Why others can be sooo good in managing themselves. How can they became so good. And I am still in the quest for searching the right thing to do and still, my 'car' is on the side road. Not in the main road.

Well, the answer is I can't let go of the past. What's fix on my eyes are my lackings, my past.

I have never bother to look out for tomorrow.
I have never plan for tomorrow.

To change the past, I need to give my best for tomorrow.

I forgot that.

Stepping into a new phase, I bet, dozens of works need to be done.
Meeting new people, working with them could be tiresome. Plus, I already have my own quest.( errr.. I can't be that selfish. NO! )

Thats not even a point of argument. Thats Rahmah.
He wants me to learn something, to gain something, to overcome my lacking.

I know.
HE misses me.
T_T

ImanD


3 comments:

[amiza malik] said...

iman <3

kita kene panggil drHar for further elaboration on managing emotions tu kan hehehe.

Anonymous said...

Writing again!! Well good for u , yr family & ummah.move on move on,, the gerabak d & t will never wait for us..
-- makman

Amanina ST said...

entah lah man2..sometimes aku pikir..aku rasa aku tahu je apa jawapan kenapa diri ni masih tak menjadi..keyword of success is to be totally Islam..and not mixing it with apa2 selain islam..
but then ak sendiri..bila repent tak betul2 repent..T___T but i try my best.. T__T doakan aku jgk man2...